Tomorrow is our 16th months <3

16 months flew away so fast. I think about you a lot everyday and I miss you every minute of the day. Sometimes it makes me wonder if all this is worth it? Will we be together in the future? Are we strong enough to keep this going? When you left, I KNEW that we will be together later in the future. I KNEW for sure.

But, you know, a distance is a funny thing. It makes you wonder if the feelings that we shared when we were together was all real. It was real to me back then, but I’m starting to forget how your hands felt like, how you sounded like, how you walked, etc….. And it makes you wonder if everything that we shared was a dream. Not being able to talk to you, catching up with your life after 2 weeks, not being able to have a conversation with you…….. It’s making me weak. The only thing that’s keeping me strong is that vchat we will have in about a week and a half. How I’ll catch up with whatever you have been going through the past month and a half and you’ll catch up with whatever I went through the past month and a half. How we will go through that checkpoint in our relationship to let each other know that we are still in this.

Couple nights ago, my friends were talking about relationship and someone was cheated on by a long-distance girlfriend. From what I heard, most relationships don’t work out because of the distance. I really don’t want that to happen to us. I want us to keep our relationship strong. I don’t want to go through a breakup with you, I don’t want to hurt you, I don’t want to get hurt, and I want you in my life as long as I can. Everyone says that distance will kill the relationship and I hope that’s not true. I hope that we can prove to everyone that the distance will NOT kill anyone’s relationship. 

I hope you know that I will always pray for you and that I’ll try to stay strong as long as I can. Things will get tough and I don’t want to think about how tough it will be knowing that it’s already hard. It’s 6:22AM here and it’s 10:22PM in Korea. You should be in bed already! I really do hope that you keep yourself strong! Good night booboo <3